HOLD ME

HOLD ME

Will you just hold me?
Not say a word, but hold me?
Open your arms and hold me?
Just close your mouth
and be silent?

Tonight the world collapsed
and fell on top of me
Tonight the cage opened
and I tumbled out
Tonight the cage opened
and all in me came out

So hold me and be quiet
I don't know who I am
I am a joke, I am nothing
Please be nice to me
And just hold me?

Tonight I realised
This cannot go on
Tonight I made the decision
I will go away
Tonight I am asking you
Come with me?

I wash the fake I am
from my face
I wash off all that I am not
from my being
I erase what they made me
from my existence

Tonight my eyes opened
And all I saw was fear
Tonight was the last night
I swear
So hold me tight
And run with me
NOW!

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- Darren White

Written for the YA LGBT BOOK group

September 2016 prompt