NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?

NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?

You gave me this picture yesterday,

I have been looking at it all afternoon

I did say nothing, but I know, soon

You come to ask me: "What do you say?"

I sit here quiet, defeated, sad

This means to me the end of us

You don't want me as I am, and thus

I am not having, all I have is had

You don't really talk to me

My man, you demand by proxy

For me to be a man I cannot be

To be so manly is just not me

I am my long curls, feminine

A girly boy, Don't rob me

Of my long hair, of the real me

Don't push me out, please keep me in.

I put my lipgloss on and smile

My teary grin around green eyes

A ribbon in my hair, no more lies

I saw this coming for a while

I say goodbye my macho man

My strong sweet lover, we are done

I rip the photo apart, then I am gone

Time for my own life, while I still can!

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Written for Goodreads YA LGBT groups

November 2016 prompt

Poem by Darren White