I AM NOT HERE

This is what dissociation and derealisation feels like:

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I am standing there, upright....
For those to see: present.
My eyes are open wide.
But time and world are bent.
My eyes are blind outside.

Time doesn't move inside
Where who I am is sent
And nothing looks quite right
For every second spent
Triples my internal fright
Because everything feels so unreal.
And I try so hard, but cannot feel.
A room that is a room no more.
Please step in, please help me deal.
Make me better, help me heal.
Because I am frightened to the core.