LAST CONVERSATION

LAST CONVERSATION

I look at your pathetic form 
And say: 
“Will you just look at me? 
Just look at me and see me? 
See me for once in my life? 
My life wasn’t mine but yours.” 

The silence bouncing of the walls 
Reverberating in my ears 
And brain 

And then you say: 
“There’s nothing I can say
I say nothing you want to hear 
You hear only what you want 
I want you to go 
Go and never return 
If you return I will end you 
End you as I should have. 
I should have ended you.” 

I ride my chair outside the room 
And guards unlock the door 
I go. 

The conversation in my head 
Was nothing compared 
To what you said 
Did I expect “sorry”? 

- Darren White, 2016